hmm... hi there... its been a while.... yeah i know... i haven't really called in a while... but things have been different of late... i promise though! next time i get the chance to move some dates around i can totally pencil you in... god this is sad...

yeah i am in college now.. i go to Columbia College film school in downtown Chicago IL... and i got to say it keeps things interesting... currently i should be doing home work... but i am not... its weird that it is now all on me at all times... no one to fall back on... i sit here every night for the past few months not being able to sleep... wearing my thick rimmed REAL-D Glasses with the lenses pushed out (mah workin specks) and my BOSE head phones to drown out the sound of my roommates snoring...... lets see.. what else is new...

i am love with some one and her name is the L Line Subway system... it can take me any where at all no skin off my back... i LOVE public transportation...

i am going out all the time... witch is something i never really did... even though i always going to movies it counts!

i ate a TRUE chicago style hotdog.... now that is a funny story.... i have lots of stories... not the kind of stories i expected to be having... its kinda nice... ask me about em some time....

i have new friends.... i was nervous coming here and decided to schedule myself around the lifestyle i used to be witch was A LAZY ASS HOLE..... so now my classes are from 6-10 o clock at NIGHT when every thing is happening... and my friends are out haveing fun and when i am SUPPOSED TO BE HAVING FUN... god i am a fuck up.... but i suppose i was planning to have no friends... so... at least i was prepared... hopfully some confidence stuck and i wont be this dumb semister dos.....

Josh came out to visit... that was amazing.... it was weird to experience my best friend form my old life with the ones in my new life... josh no one can ever replace you and i miss you if you read this... i wish we could just chill in my room like we used to...

i like Chicago.. its a cool city.... i like... living in the city.... i am... free....

but all of this whole experience has made me think.... my two younger sisters (yes i am the oldest of three) are now both in high school.... i dont want them to grow up.... life GENERALLY SUCKS.... once again ask for stories on that back up... i dont want them to have to expirence this sometiems... even though i know they have to....

honestly i have no idea waht i am thinking of late..............................................................................................

i dont sleep....

i dont know....

this is all so new...

i love it...

yet...

i hate it...

things have never been so simple.... yet at the same time have never made less sense...

ugh... i am not the type of person that should be left in charge of a full person by myself... let alone some one like me...

ick... i have lived her for about 6 weeks and i am yet to vacuum the floor....

i missy my derger... (puppy dog) he was security to me... no matter what would happen... he would love me with out even thinking about it...
he was allways so warm.....

my room is cold...

i have been thinking of this poem lately...

The Way It Is by: William Stafford

There’s a thread you follow. It goes among
things that change. But it doesn’t change.
People wonder about what you are pursuing.
You have to explain about the thread.
But it is hard for others to see.
While you hold it you can’t get lost.
Tragedies happen; people get hurt
or die; and you suffer and get old.
Nothing you do can stop time’s unfolding.
You don’t ever let go of the thread.


i am not going to write my own poetry.......

i thrive on situations like this... but i just dont feel like i am succeeding at this...

P.S Perpich is a HAVEN and should be the model for what the perfect world should be like.....

i dont know... i guess i am going to go do home work...

"But It Did Happen"

-Seth Oberle... Media Kid... College Man.... Lover....

...Seth